weiling.

what matters most is that we are still running towards the same goal.

I love God because He is always with me, be it in happy times or sad times.

We just need to come to Him like little children.

He wipes away tears,
He rejoices with you,
Always and forever.

Thank God for ministering to me through this

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

Loads of thoughts been going on in my mind, aghh don’t like it when it’s 2am in the morning.

Starting school in less than a week, I’m not sure what to expect, how everything will be like and all. But was reminded that God is with me and He will be with me even as I start a new chapter in Mdis, not knowing anyone in the course. Support from a community in Mdis may not be evident yet, but trusting in God for His providence. Lord, may u prepare my heart for school as somehow, I feel this unknown heaviness in my heart.

Asked my parents about getting baptized few days ago and didn’t expect such negativities in their minds even after 5-6years of being a christian. Sometimes I wonder what it will be like being born into a Christian family, but I trust in God’s plans and thankful for guiding me into His kingdom, experiencing His love and grace in this journey. Im now claiming by faith, that they will not only accept my baptism, but also for their salvation too. Was actually crying pretty badly that day when all the negativities from them set in and it aches my heart seeing how they see money as the utmost importance in life, that they are asking me to pursue money instead of God. Was reminded of these verses:

For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. (1 Timothy 6:7-10 NKJV)

I’m trusting in a miracle in my family, and I know it’s near.

Alright, it has been really long since I last posted. Life has really been an amazing journey this far.

It is indeed through brokenness, through trails, that one learns who God really is, and knowing His heart for us.

As I was walking home today, saw a group of students in uniform at abt 10plus at night..

Was once again reminded of how I used to dislike going home and just wanted to hang out with friends and all. As I grew up, I learnt why people may behave in a certain way, and why some things happen etc. It’s amazing how God opened doors to expose me into counseling such youths at a school.

All I can say is, God has redeemed me- from brokenness to a child of God- made to be used by Him (reminded of this in a worship song sang ytd).

Dennis balcombe’s msg today simply brought tears to my eyes.. God’s love for china is indeed beyond description..

Reflections for Qqs

One word came to my mind as I reflected upon this whole trip: “thankful”. I’m thankful to God to allow me to come for this Qqs trip since my family objected to it initially, thankful to have raised more than enough funds for this trip, thankful for the friendship forged with the Xi an university students, for giving me an opportunity to serve the people in china through the service learning. Its indeed by God’s grace that we managed to have a smooth trip there and bonds were forged faster than expected.

Other than handling the special children and experiencing the china culture, one major takeaway for me will be the opportunity to experience God’s love for the people in china, through the one salvation too, which I didn’t really expect it. I wonder if this is an affirmation from God to serve in china, as ever since the vision and words released by God during g12, I had been seeking and asking God to show clearer signs, especially through Qqs. I know that the time is not now, but at least, it’s a preparation.

Back here again after months and though so many things had happened, all I can say is God is good and He is in control!

Step is ending next week, and I can’t believe that it’s so fast! As ps Yo asked us to reflect on the things that we were involved in, I realized how much the area of exposure is, though I feel that more can be done though. Step indeed helped me to grow and went beyond the goals that I set before I started.

But now, I’m still seeking God about directions in ministry. There are so many different voices that contradict, including different voices from authorities, but I got to listen to only one voice- voice from God.

Lord, help me to be more sensitive to your voice. Continue to be my guide as I surrender my life into your hands. Grant me with the wisdom to know how to break the news about * . In Jesus name I pray, amen.

On a side note, I really miss my friends, esp those that I haven had the chance to talk to for quite some time.

Dear Lord, I dunno how to think, what to think now. All I know is, I will trust in you. For I know that was the best plans you have given me. I thank you for sending people to encourage me.

Future seems like a total blank, but i know that there is somewhere that God will place me at.

I don’t know if I’m escaping from my emotions, I appeared calm, I teared for a few seconds, and now I’m on my way to expo for g12. Smile girl.

blessed be your name!

Felt so blessed throughout the whole week/past weekend etc, that I can’t control my tears, my joy, knowing that God’s grace & love abound in our lives. Thank you Lord for sending angels to me once again, such as auntie Annie, uncle Benny, ps william, angela, kelly, etc etc, thank you Lord for using them as a channel of your blessings and love for me! Blessings that I can’t contain, for there’s more than I ever needed.

Been really busy, especially for the past week- been rushing from places to places but yet, theres this joy, knowing that amidst everything, there’s a heavenly Father that gives us strength and peace(:

Encounter weekend coming up in few days time and I thank God that the encountering process has alr been on going for past yrs and past week has been an even more intimate encounter! Ps W said that the healing process it’s just like a surgery process, it seems like the wound is perfectly healed on the outside but internally, it may not have been completely healed, so God will cut these wounds, do the mending process where pain is evident, and then, seal the wound. complete freedom will be the end result(: Just met up with Ly, Sl, jh and Clare and thank God for this relationship after all these years and I do cherish this (: I miss the rest, like yvonne, Yt, Yh and cyn. :/ Met up with some canoeing peeps aft that and though it was just a brief meeting, at least there’s lil catch ups here and there!

Been so busy that I failed to update my blog, sorry tumblr!

Well, it has been such an inspiring journey in step-my current ‘job’, and I dont really consider this as a job. Found so much joy throughout this step journey and learnt so much that totally ‘blew’ me away! God has been downloading so many things into my mind each day, that made me feel so overwhelmed but of cos, in a good way(: been really busy but thank God that I still managed to meet up with some close friends! Step has indeed allowed me to grow alot more in my journey with God, in my character-building, and this may sound funny but it made me alot more thrifty! With $500 per month to spend from my salary, I’ve been so much more sensitive to prices and I’m still trying hard to earn for my driving license:/.

It’s gg to be the end of jan soon, time flies. I still rmbed I entered 2011 feeling so uncertain about my future and if I will even get into step, but, God is indeed faithful (:

Follow after God’s heart.